because of guys like you, they made waterproof mascara.

Trials have officially ended. A little anti climatic since my studying momentum slowed down after the first week. It really isn't our fault if we can't be persistent in the studying throughout the entire month. Trials are so bloody exhausting, a huge congratulations is fitting for anyone who survived it without driving themselves insane.

And yes, I am a drama queen.

Anyhoo, so it's 45 days to SPM and NiqueJilMimzMei and I decided to celebrate our impending doom by spending quality time together at Bangsar.

It was "tea" at Marmalade first where I had bread&butter pudding, Nique had her dinner (which was basically mouths full of spinach+bread) and the other three psycho never-been-to-marmalade before people had cupcakes&bruchetta. Oh, and Mei drank asam. Long story.

My everyday entertainment. The things we imagine. Btw, she's off the market. She's given her heart to a fictional character (yes, she is my friend).

My gorgeous pumps.

Then we moved to the little sofas while I stalked people on the street while the rest stared at the blinds. Truly fascinating, I must say.

I absolutely love this picture.

We left Marmalade after attempting to camwhore to walk off the pounds we shamelessly put on. Walked around Bangsar Village II, looking at things we can't afford to buy. Moved on to my shopping haven just outside to look-see-look-see at clothes&shoes. Conquered two rows of shops before heading back to Bangsar Village II to meet up with Zhen.

Joined in the buka puasa crowd at Ms.Read because Miriam made us. Accidentally ate calamari when I was supposed to be vegetarian today. Oops. Miriam said I'm not very religious, which would have made me very upset...if it wasn't true.

So we just sat around, enjoying each other's company. I sure as hell enjoyed Mei's ;)

And then we left rather early leaving Zhen&Mimz behind because Nique had ballet and I didn't want to be out so long. Talked about prom on the way back with Aunty Marge. Haha. And the night continued with funny web cam conversations with Calvin&Joshua -both horny little buggers.

Oh, and my ICC post is finally up.

jue*the one guy that deserves you is the one guy that thinks he doesn't.

there's nobody singing to me now.

I just came out of the shower (the place where I dwell in my thoughts the most) and I now have this intention to just writewritewrite. I spent over an hour drafting out a post with gut wrenching confessions and thoughts that I was almost certain I would delete the whole thing.

...And I did.

It's been so long since I've poured my heart out that the mere thought of it seems extremely foreign. I've learnt to avoid the urge to tell my life story to anyone who's listening. I used to be able to tell people exactly how I feel when I feel it. I spoke my goddamn mind.

But now it just seems proper to keep things to myself.

Despite your objections, I still believe that people do change, that they can if they want to. Nothing stays the same - that's just the way things are. The only thing that's constant is the fact that nothing really is. Deal with it.

jue*you're not the one for me.

Random : 19th September 2007 marked one of the funniest phone conversations I've had in awhile though albeit short. I've almost forgotten how great it is to talk to him (plus the small fact that he sounds hotter now -voice broke. Ha ha.). Isn't it funny that I've texted and talked to the Ex-Boyfriend in the past week more than I've had with you in two weeks? And you said you never wanted to lose me. It's a little late for that now.

fifteen going on one.

About a week ago, my dad indirectly said I've put on weight.

....Okay, he didn't. He said I'm getting my baby face shape back. And in case you didn't know, I was one chubby baby. (I can hear Joshua laughing right about now)

Picture proof that I was fat. Like hello, can you just see the double chin? Excuse the poor picture quality. My dad had stuck this picture in a frame for so long it's practically glued to the glass.

These two really loved dressing me up. I'm a style star!

My first birthday :)

Model coming through ;).

Well there you go. Yes, I did look very chinese. And yes, everytime I show my mum my early baby pictures, she thinks it's my brother.

jue*caught you in the morning.

when love loses its cause.

To that someone,

Thank you for showing me that I should have never gone against my instinct.
You're nothing but a fading memory.

jue*i let myself fall in love with you.

get back to the disaster.

Random picture just because I think it's cute,

Me missing you Berlin Liew <3.

Oh and because I'm finally able to log into my Photobucket account, I've published a long overdue post that was saved under my drafts.

Must moralize myself now. Cheers! :)

jue*if i was juliet, would you be my romeo?

so much to say, no words to convey.

I thought I saw a man brought to life,

He was warm,

He came around,

Like he was dignified,

He showed me what it was to cry.

Well you couldn't be that man I adored,

You don't seem to know - or seem to care

What your heart is for,

I don't know him anymore.

There's nothing where he used to lie,

My conversation has run dry,

That's what's goin' on,

Nothings fine,

I'm torn.

I really don't know why you've got such a strong hold onto me.

I suppose you're just different in more ways than one.

And I'm not too sure if that really is a good thing.

Under normal circumstances, I would have moved on by now.

Found another guy, had another fling, gone through another phase.

But with you, it's just not the same.

The both of us are like chalk and cheese.

Yet you keep me hanging on to something that may or may not be there.

And I hate the way I've gotten so attached.

I can live without you, it's just that I'd rather not.

I spent quite a bit of time trying to understand things from your point of view.

It makes sense, I suppose.

But these thoughts have left me doubting everything you've once said.

I can't bring myself to leave and you can't bring yourself to stay.

Why did you continue the chase if you weren't ready?

Why didn't you stop this at the many opportunities that you could have?

Why do you say you want to get closer and yet still remain the same?

Why are you so willing to let everything go?

Why did you choose to let this reach to a point so exhilarating that the sheer thought of losing it scares me?

For the first time in a long time, I'm sure about my feelings for someone.

I reallyreally like you.

Your jokes, your laughter, your phone calls, your boxers,

your morning wake up texts, your faith, your hugs, your smile.

Just every little thing about you.

But if that isn't enough, then...so be it.

I'm calling it quits.

I'm all out of faith,

This is how I feel,

I'm cold and I am shamed,

Lying naked on the floor,

Illusion never changed, into something real,

I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn,

You're a little late

I'm already torn.

jue*forget yesterday.

my new baby.

My new puppy - Rusty.
Half Siberian Husky, quarter Rottweiler, quarter Bullmastiff.
I feel like Meredith.
Everytime something happens with Cina Boyy, I get a new dogg.
Great.
But it's so tiny you can just cradle it like a baby.
I sayang <3. align="right">jue*sunny days and clear blue skies.

so i had to shoot him dead.

Random update; between breaks.

A lot has happened and yet nothing has changed. I'm having a break between transformers and waves and I'm pretty upset that I haven't been studying the chapters in order (because I really haven't been studying all that much).

No. Seriously.

I (re)watched Shakespeare In Love yesterday which left me feeling a little poetic and a little too deep in my thoughts.

Okay, I really can't find the words to say. Pictures coming up in sixteen* days.
*subject to change.

jue*cause you're so damn easy.

just throw it on me.

My SATURDAY,

Taken off sashabashir.blogspot.com

And I wore this,

My SUNDAY,

I went on a helicopter ride around Setia Alam. My parents conned me into believing the whole deal would only take an hour and a half. We were there for about four bloody hours. It was pretty cool though abit short. Saw some showhouses cause my parents were in the mood.

My sister doesn't know

how to

SMILE!

Stopped by Jaya for a little while which I haven't been to in ages. I'm sorta missing my Monday lunches with Elena there. Haven't bitched discussed on important issues in awhile now.

Then I went to pick up my new doggie - ZICO :). I swear, this little boyy is the cutest thing ever. It's fun to be running around the garden with him. Relieves stress. No better pictures because he can never sit still. Isaak&Jesh have been coming around a lot more too. Zico's a pampered little fella with all the attention it's getting. Oh well.

And then my night wrapped up with a little bit of KevinOng&Mandy. These two are hilarious put together. We talked about High School Musical. Well kinda.

My MONDAY,

Surprised Nique at her place with some brownies and well, me. Fantastic birthday present if I may say so herself. We helped each other do horribly in Bio today so double yeay for us. You see, I'm setting my priorities straight. And lazing around at her place like I do on a daily weekly basis definitely triumphs studying about locomotion. Oh, and

HAPPY SWEET SEVENTEEN NIQUE :)

Study, you say? Oh please.

jue*girls are forever, boys are whatever.

with you i can be anything.

One year ago.

There's so many things that I could say about you but I choose to keep them to myself. I don't need words to express how much our friendship means to me. Some things are better left unsaid, or so I have been told. I don't need black and white documents or countless pictures to prove that we've been through a lot together and there's still so much for the both of us out there.

My style might have changed, my behavior might have changed (less mood swings, heh), my believes might have changed and even my group of friends might have changed. You put up with e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g I throw at you, sometimes with a little complaining, sometimes with a few arguments, but you're my constant and I'm keeping my fingers crossed that you always will be.

Thank you for being there - through all my bitch fits, my mood swings, my boys, my phases, my cravings, my obsessive compulsiveness, my everyday life.

Happy Birthday Lim Dominique Jo <3.

jue*we're standing still.