we drink air tebu, we eat sup labu.

To think that the very thing that made me start this blog a year ago has come and gone once again.

I haven't really settled with the fact that I've come back from camp. Though it wasn't 27 days long, has a 8 hour time difference and I actually had to fly there, Supercamp seems to be giving me a similar effect it did with UK. Despite Lena coming over for a almost the entire day, I still felt sort of out of place being back home. Of course this could be because of the awkwardness of just ending yet another phase, but I choose to forget about that small part.

Considering all that has happened with Interact in the past year, it came to no suprise that I wasn't as excited as I should have been about camp. I have this thing for living in the past, where I can't seem to let go of memories no matter how hard I try. Trolak last year was good and I hadn't prepared myself for the possibility of Rompin not living up to self-made expectations. But the 26th eventually did come and I dragged my ass out of bed, into the shower and off to Assunta before sunrise. Seriously.

This year we were placed in the same bus with CHS and BB and I think 30 minutes into the bus ride, CHS Interactors already had enough of us. The guys were pretty determined to get some shut eye but I doubt that was possible with all the noise we were making. Six hours, two stops and some sleep later, we did reach Summerset Beach Resort a little more awake then we were at Assunta. It was an enjoyable bus ride no doubt, with all the KyeMin-Belle competitions, sex talk and counting palm trees.

After an edible lunch, we checked in and walked around a bit before being unfairly sorted out into four different groups. And I only say this because I was in the handful of people out of the whole chittychittybangbang gang of ours that weren't in Group 2. But in situations like this, you sort of make the best of it. Afterall, Dhabu and the 22 Dolphins weren't that bad la. Eventhough a certain someone in the group has a tendency to scream at every possible moment and another someone annoyed the crap out of me throughout the entire four days. Having Razreen, Clement and in our group probably increased the lameness but it's all good :).

Everyone : Dhabu, dhabu, dhabu.

Razreen : Hey! We're Dhabu. Not debu. We suprise you with a...

Everyone : Peekaboo!
Razreen : We drink...

Everyone: Air tebu!
Razreen : We eat...
Everyone : Sup labu!
Razreen : And we still...

Everyone : BEAT YOU!

The telematch (think : long huge cucumbers, gunny sacks, balloons and human chains) placed us at second place and we safely remained there throughout the night. It's usually customary to stay up during the night at camps, but (I'm guessing) because the guys had such eventful days before camp, they practically KO-ed even before anything could have gotten started. My beloved roomies - Nique, Jil and Mimz - on the other hand kept on saying how they wanted to spend the night awake. Predictably, all three fell asleep leaving me to entertain myself with late night phone calls and the not-so-fantastic starry night before eventually falling asleep on the bed (but I had to move to the balcony & sofa later because Mimz is superbly fat and likes to hog the bed :P).

Woke up the next morning all bright and shiny after a nice cold shower. Sherrie rushed us down saying we were late for breakfast when we were actually the first ones there. Mind you, this continued for all the meals. Apparently, we're just so much more punctual than the rest. I spent Day 2 with the easy activites - Scavenger Hunt and Wetland Tour. Spent a good 20 minutes trying to actually find that stupid Kamuning/Kemuning/PurpleCrap. Well, at least now I know what it is. We didn't score very well for the hunt simply because the guy didn't specify that timing is crucial. All he said was be back within two hours. Bleh. Whatevs. The Wetland Tour was basically either kayaking or canoeing and I was teamed up with Annie who has this thing for making me scream in the middle of the river (which really looked more like a huge monsoon drain). We raced with Niro&Roshan and we didn't do too bad. Haha. By right, we shouldn't have gotten all wet but Annie likes picking fights with other people which led to paddle wars which led to making me smell like swamp. Heh -_-.

In between activites, we bummed in the pool occasionally throwing frisbees or just sitting by the jacuzzi. Praevin, Kye Min and Lex's bodies put (most of) the girls bodies to shame man. Talk about being jealous. It rained slightly in the evening but that didn't stop us from having beach soccer and beach volleyball :). A group of us played tag on the beach instead. Funny la the juniors. Haha. Of course I didn't take part in the othe beach games, I just served as the (superbly amazingly talented) photographer+cheerleader.

That night we heard all the stories from the other groups. Shal attempted to drown more people but it's okay babe, we still love you :):). Kudos on making it across the second time without the life jacket. We're so proud *tears*. Everyone was split up the rest of the night before the Rotaractors told us to return to our rooms. Mimz, Belle, Sher and I had this major plan for the night but since we had to wait for some things we decided to sleep first. When Belle and Mimz tried to wake me up later, I was too tired to go I just slept the night through. They came back later and gosh, if only I had a video cam. It was the funniest thing to see them all sprawled out on the balcony. It's okay babes. Our little secret ;).

Plans to swim in the morning were canceled due to two very very ko-ed people. I wonder why. Haha. So I went for a walk instead which in my opinion, could have ended in a thousand different (better) ways. First activity of the day was River Crossing which wasn't as bad as the other groups painted it to be. I'm very proud that I'm not one of those squealatickywater girls and that I can actually stand a little dirt in my shoes. As usual, we jumped into the pool straight after just because that's the way it is. Walked around bare footed the entire afternoon just so I could dry my shoes. Plus, I smelt like crap and tasted like sand (HAHA! Someone would know :P) but it didn't really matter since I was going to walk through even more swamps during jungle trekking (or more like swamp crossing) afterwards.

Just because the first group complained about how easy the original track was, the other three groups had a more difficult track set but it was all good cause it was really fun. Unlike Nique and Sherrie, I survived it with only three scratches on my left thigh. Razman was uber nice as he always lent a helping hand even though he wasn't quite balanced on the mud. Haha :). We were showed pitcher plants and some species of birds later, as well as an Orang Asli burial tree that was found a couple of years back. And for the first time since Sports Day, I jogged 2.5km back to the resort. Felt so good.

Went for a shower to wash off the scum before going back down for the beach games. Watched the guys play beach soccer and I just have to say this again, Praevin is a reallyreallyreally good goalie. I'm not sure about the rest of the people, but I could feel the sudden tense-ness of the dining hall as I entered. You could just see everyone trying to cramp in as much happy as they can before the night was over. We had the usual group presentations afterwards where we had a good share of laughs not exactly with each other but more like at each other :). Meer changed the BB Prefect Camp song to sute Rompin and that really sold their performance to the Rotarians. I still remember Parriappa, Pushpa and Madame Papaya Panjang though!

After the activities, the every-year-must-have-dancefloor started and boyy, can some of my friends shuffle. We bummed around outside just staring at the starless sky, talking, eating and just being ourselves. Watched the videos Aznam has taken so far with the video cam in Room 111 before heading off to the pool side to bum there. A couple others had already fallen asleep so only a handful of us went. I fell asleep by the poolside but before I could even fall into deep sleep, Aznam and Meer had already woken me up. Nik, Alya and Triff later came by and they thought Aznam is in Form 3. HAHA :)! Budak kechik. Everyone was slowly dozing off so Nique and I went to Aznam, Ian, Meer and Najee's (very smelly) room to eat Oreos. We went to bed at 3 saying we'll be up in two hours to go for a swim. Three guesses what happened afterwards.

Oh and here's a note to whoever who wants to talk to Nique in the middle of the night : No matter how important it is to talk to her, she won't remember a single thing in the morning. In fact, she probably wouldn't even remember you talked to her. Learn from Mr. Red Shirt Guy. Eventhough she sits up in bed and appears to be replying to your conversation, she isn't awake. You're better off just waking me up. Like seriously.

Not so suprisingly, we woke up about half an hour before breakfast was over but I still managed to shower unlike some smellysmelly people who went for breakfast in the day before's clothes. We had our final group discussion which proceeded with us singing Auld Lang Syne in the most out of tune manner I've ever heard. Since we had quite some time before lunch, the whole group of us went down to the beach one last time to just soak in everything before it was too late. It felt so surreal hanging by the beach with them. Despite the last two nights of shattered hearts and broken promises, Packed our bags, ate lunch, tortured the guys with 'IQ' games before finally saying goodbye to Summerset.

The ride back was not as loud as it was on the way there just because I was sitting towards the front of the bus. Kim bought me Dunkin Donuts at the last rest stop which made me really really happy. While Kye Min, Belle, Mimz, Nique and Aznam were entertaining themselves by singing off key, I entertained myself being submerged in one too many thoughts that left me pretty much muddled and confused. Well, if that's considered entertaining la. Elena called to inform about her receiving the ASEAN letter which little did I know meant that the both of us are going to go through pure torture next weekend. Joy. Btw, I sat next to LEXANDL GAN YAN HIEN all the way back. He got stuck in the seat while he was trying to cross over. Very the funny :). By the time we got to Assunta, it was already approaching 8 o'clock, so I hurried back home, took a shower and went off for a continuation of the camp - at ss2 - with LexDavidLeonPraevinFooSoonElena&Vid :).

Overall, I think it wouldn't be fair if I compared the two camps together. Both camps had their own special moments, the downsides and the rare memories; all which I would treasure for as long as I can remember. It's safe to say I enjoyed almost every bit of it, including the meal times where we just sit at this big round table and entertain ourselves with each other's presence (and watermelon eating). I would like to say I have no regrets about the whole ordeal but that, unfortunately, would be a lie. I'm just glad I could make it for this year's. Afterall, as much as everyone's trying to deny it, this is our last camp together.

Memories are fine, but you couldn't touch them, smell them or hold them. They were never exactly as the moment was and they faded with time.

It's only been a day and I'm already longing to go back.

Cause we are the Interactors of Petaling,
Having a good time in Rompin,

Playing in the sun, dip in the pool...

jue*goodbye summerset.

i know things get worse before the get better...

in·com·pe·tent /ɪnˈkɒmpɪtənt/ [in-kom-pi-tuhnt]

–adjective
1. not competent; lacking qualification or ability; incapable: an incompetent candidate.
2. characterized by or showing incompetence: His incompetent acting ruined the play.

–noun
3. an incompetent person; a mentally deficient person.

If you're really not smart enough to follow simple instructions that have been printed AND explained to you, then you're really not smart enough to be holding such a highly regarded post in any club, society or uniform body. Seriously, which part of 'Please burn two activity pictures onto a CD' did you not understand?

I swear, if I had enough time on my hands, I would be worrying how the fuck you're gonna survive in the working world.

jue*...but this is a worse that feels too big.

there's no going back since i've let myself fall in love with you.

12.33am; 5th May 2007.

Just when I wanted you to be there for me, just this once, you turned your back on me.

So maybe I've been getting a little out of control lately and the emergency calls have been pretty frequent and I know you've been busy with other things, other people, but what happened to the words you once so confidently whispered into my ears? Always and forever, together and apart, you said we'd be there for each other. So how come forever ended so soon?

Now you just whisper all this sweet lies trying to buy your way back in. Once upon a time, I was foolish enough to have believed those words, deceived by a relationship I thought would never end. Maybe I expect too much. Maybe all this while, the feelings were just one sided. Maybe everything before this was nothing but an illusion.

And you know what the saddest part is? As much as I want to tell myself you're nothing in my life, I'm still waiting for you to come save me.

Please don't be that loser in the aluminium foil.

jue*i wanted everything to stay the same, but feelings fade and people change.

some want to kiss you and some want to kick you.

Exam Stories.

It's finally over. All 23 papers and 10 days of it. Call me a drama queen, but this is the first time we've sat for all the papers, and thank the heaven's we don't have to till another 115 days more. Anyway, here's a quick check on the days that have gone by. Not in chronological order though.

• First up, I have to congratulate myself for staying away from the computer for so long. Not because I had to, not because I was banned but just because I didn't feel the need to come online. It might not be much for you but for someone with her personal computer, wireless internet and generally loose rules on computer usage, you would think I would use all this freedom to be constantly online (like I usually am). I guess this is when hell freezes over.

• Despite having exams and all, my family & a bunch of friends went to watch Spiderman 3 on May 1st. Seriously, the mall was P-A-C-K-E-D. I didn't know Spiderman 3 was that anticipated. And to top it all off, just as we were going to buy popcorn before heading in, the entire TGV part of the mall had a blackout. 20 minutes later, the counter person announces, "Sorry, there has been a power failure". Gee, like we didn't figure that out. Eventually we did get to see the movie and gosh, Berl couldn't stop talking. Haha. Which kinda made me talk which kinda made Lal's brother get mad. Woops. The movie was good though. And James Franco deserves an extrayummylicious award. Funny quotable quotes were said during the movie, but I guess you have to be there to laugh. SIMBA! ;).


• ElenaBanana came over the other day for a random visit. I think it's just because she didn't want to stay at Puan Ilani's for too long. Oh well. She needed some long overdue human company anyway. Besides Hang that is. Talking to the cat for too long doesn't do you any good. So we just talked and talked gossiped and gossiped and gossiped some more. Talked about the most random things and touched a bit on our usual ones. It's good to know that we can still talk despite the distance. Let me rephrase that, it's good to know we can still BITCH despite the distance. Love you foreverandever babe. Good luck for your exams. And don't worry, I won't tell anyone about the cockroach incident. You know the one where it came near you and you started screaming so much it ran away but you still screamed and I laughed and even though you were screaming for my maid, she didn't come and when my parents saw you they just walked away and we just left you there screaming for a good 15 minutes? Yeah, THAT incident. I won't tell anyone about it ;).
  
  
• All the late nights and deprivation of sleep really took a toll on my body. My sleeping timing went so haywire, it's amazing I could convince my mind to stay up during exams. The lights in my room have been left on the whole night/morning even when I do accidentally fall asleep and it's been ages since I've slept properly on my pillow with my comforter pulled close to my body. Mum says I waste electricity. Sacrifices for knowledge la. A special thanks to that not-so-gay gay friend of mine for waking me up countless number of times and bugging me to study. It's your turn to study hard. Haha.


• Which reminds me, all this lack of sleep has got me dreaming me very very weird dreams. First I thought it was a one time thing but then it happened again and again and I'm actually starting to get a little worried. It started off with one dream where B had asked me to dance. I didn't know it was B at first and it took me forever to actually figure out who he was. Then a few nights ago I dreamt I was visiting Z's house in Singapore and I was hanging out there with our families and all. And most recently, two nights ago, I dreamt I was on a date with KH which is weird cause he's in Form 3 (like that was ever a problem) and J was in the dream too. Like ohmygod, talk about random. I don't event talk to this people or see them frequent let alone be close enough to dream about. And they weren't just passing figures, they were actually the entire dream. Until I figure this out, I guess Zhen would just have to tolerate all my story telling in the PR. Haha.


• Moral paper last week was kinda funny. Surprisingly, it was my most completed paper and I finished it 5 minutes before the bell rang so I decided to be a diligent student and check my answers. I looked up from my paper and saw Hema's front page which had highlighted instructions. I thought to myself, "What could be so important on the front page that she has to highlight it?". So I decided to check. I read the instructions :
  
  Kertas ini mengandungi 8 soalan struktur and 3 soalan esei.
  
  So I rechecked my paper. Seven structured questions and two essays. Check again. STILL Seven structured questions and two essays. Crap, in the last two minutes of the exam, I asked Puan Loo for the missing sheet and scribbled on my answers in lightning speed. It didn't help that Puan Loo kept on making jokes and doing that eye thing at me. Let's just hope it doesn't jeopardize my marks. Heh -_-.


• You know, I just realised that I'm a rather old fashioned person when it comes to a lot of things. I don't think it's perfectionism anymore, I just think it's a little queer. It's like, I can't read Chapter 9 of something if I haven't read Chapter 2, even though it's totally not connected. I have to go in order and it kinda works in my disadvantage most of the time. I don't know, it's just me I suppose.
  
  
• Oh and here's a reminder to myself to never listen to Sarah's prediction on exam questions. Seriously.

I guess this is a pretty sufficient come back post. More to come, definitely. Cheers :).

jue*give me something to believe in, cause i don't believe in you anymore.