there's no going back since i've let myself fall in love with you.

12.33am; 5th May 2007.

Just when I wanted you to be there for me, just this once, you turned your back on me.

So maybe I've been getting a little out of control lately and the emergency calls have been pretty frequent and I know you've been busy with other things, other people, but what happened to the words you once so confidently whispered into my ears? Always and forever, together and apart, you said we'd be there for each other. So how come forever ended so soon?

Now you just whisper all this sweet lies trying to buy your way back in. Once upon a time, I was foolish enough to have believed those words, deceived by a relationship I thought would never end. Maybe I expect too much. Maybe all this while, the feelings were just one sided. Maybe everything before this was nothing but an illusion.

And you know what the saddest part is? As much as I want to tell myself you're nothing in my life, I'm still waiting for you to come save me.

Please don't be that loser in the aluminium foil.

jue*i wanted everything to stay the same, but feelings fade and people change.