you keep me hanging on.

This happened a few days ago but it still puts a smile on my face thinking about it,

McNeighbour: What is he? An IDIOT?

Oh, Ju sayangs you <3.

jue*but we're not moving on.

five minutes to midnight.

To you,

Pretending everything is alright doesn't make everything else disappear. You should have made the effort but you didnt; you should have apologized but you didn't; you shouldn't have even continued it but you did. Friends are off limits. You knew that. And yet you still did what you did without considering the consequences it may bring to my friendship with him, not to mention ours. And worse of all, you didn't tell. It wasn't like there weren't any opportunities to do so, you just chose to keep it a secret. Well congratulations, our friendship is over.

To you,

Despite your constant denials, I'd rather us not talking than for you to start a conversation just because you felt like you had to. There's no use feeling guilty when you didn't want it in the first place. Don't do something just to make me happy because when the truth comes out, it hurts more than if you didn't start anything in the first place. Yes, sometimes I do think of what we could have been, of the things we could have achieved together. I'm convincing myself that everything happens for a reason though I still haven't found the reason just yet.

To you,

"There are many things that I'd like to say to you but I don't know how"

I've been trying to justify everything that you've done in the past few weeks but everytime I spare some thought into it, I only meet dead ends. It's funny, cause honestly, I expected more from you but you've proven yourself to me everything everyone else has warned me about. Strange, I must say, how one week we were on top of the world and the next we're barely conversing. You can't hold me for long, you know that as well as I do. We've decided to take our different paths and truthfully, I wish I cared a little more.

For once, I'd like a weekend with no drama.

I'm so screwing up my trials.

Of wrong paths taken, broken friendships and running mascara.

jue*i've got a sickness and you're the cure.

hari yang mulia, hari bahagia.

I usually blog in Malay whenever our Independance Day comes around, but I guess this year will be slightly different since I know more adjectives in English. (LOL)

Merdeka.

I'm lucky enough to be born in the generation after our country reached independance so the hardship the nation had to go through before that is barely known to me, spare the stories from the older ones and a few pages in the textbook. But I do believe that we need not go through such painful times to be thankful for our (hopefully) progressing country.

I am proud to be Malaysian; with every lah, Ramly Burger, 24-hour mamak stall, nasi lemak, pulled tea, idiot drivers, brainless politicians, dirty toilets and macha wannabes.

Malaysia is home - and that, will never change.

My last Merdeka celebration in school. Funny, to say the least.

Oh, and why do I need so many adjectives you ask?

Because I spent my Merdeka eve at Putrajaya and the fireworks were nothing short of amazing. Sure, the five hour wait was bloody awful, but I suppose the fireworks made up for it, though a little anti-climatic. Adam would know how much I love fireworks (if he remembers our conversations) so this was definitely a treat :).

And just for the twin,

More videos when I have the time.

jue*you're on the right path but you're going the wrong way.

check it out, i'm rocking steady.

She said she wanted to tell a story through her eyes.
Watches too much ANTM, I tell you.

Yup, the sister has returned. Hell hasn't broken loose yet so it's all good :).

jue*and now i think i'm ready.

oh, you really got me now.

I was going to blog something really mean true, but it's too early in the morning for me to start off with something so negative.

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21 Aug 07, 14:46
shaneq: gosh babe..i checked out wasps blog.. man their clan really hates us to bits ! "less pretty..ugli-itches" yup.. thats what the one who's goin overseas said bout us!

21 Aug 07, 14:47
shaneq: but its ok.. we have OUR BEAUTIFUL PPL..the ones who are beautiful on the INSIDE.. and thats all that matters and we know that these are the friends we can cherish for life.. and i love u too bits!!

22 Aug 07, 09:47
a: you guys suck in the inside which makes you people ugly on the outside as well. thats not very nice to call her a wasps you know and we do know who you are mentioning. shaneq his not yours anymore

22 Aug 07, 09:48
a: so drop it. your're being pathetic. you started this so its your dirt to clean up. you guys have to find other stuff to keep you busy with. girls nowadays.

22 Aug 07, 09:51
a: by the way, people in school dont like you very much. all of you. so no point btiching about the whoever other wasp clan or whatever cause they are more favourable and has a higher power than you guys

22 Aug 07, 09:53
a: so thats way you people had to go and tell on the discipline teacher or spread rumours because you have no class and that's how LOW you can stoop.den I as an opposite sex can call u a downright *****

22 Aug 07, 14:47
shaneq: whoever u are.u as an oppsite sex have no say in this situation. as ur not in this school. and i was talking to shobz. not you. mind u.

22 Aug 07, 14:48
shaneq: and FYI. we didnt go telling on the disciplined teacher ok. get ur facts straight before jumping to conslusions.

22 Aug 07, 14:57
ju: so does that mean i have a say in this situation? cause as far as i remember, you have never approached me. all your arguments have been via the internet. speak up, approach me shra. i'll be waiting :)

22 Aug 07, 15:11
shobzybee: to the boy with no guts, if you don't even know the situation,k\then keep your yap shut.

22 Aug 07, 15:12
shobzybee: okay you know what, why are we all making this such a big deal. iy's making mountains out of molehills.

22 Aug 07, 15:15
shaneq: to ju, just chill, i never wanted to make this issue a big deal. it just happened so quickly. if you really want things to be setteled, let's talk about it like adults

I laughed so hard at this, I literally cried. Anyways, since I now know for a fact that you visit my blog Shra, I'll be waiting for your little confrontation. I mean, you're the one talking about having guts and owning up and all. Thanks for increasing my endorphin level today :).

jue*i've got your little brown shirt in my bottom drawer baby.