Pretending everything is alright doesn't make everything else disappear. You should have made the effort but you didnt; you should have apologized but you didn't; you shouldn't have even continued it but you did. Friends are off limits. You knew that. And yet you still did what you did without considering the consequences it may bring to my friendship with him, not to mention ours. And worse of all, you didn't tell. It wasn't like there weren't any opportunities to do so, you just chose to keep it a secret. Well congratulations, our friendship is over.
To you,
Despite your constant denials, I'd rather us not talking than for you to start a conversation just because you felt like you had to. There's no use feeling guilty when you didn't want it in the first place. Don't do something just to make me happy because when the truth comes out, it hurts more than if you didn't start anything in the first place. Yes, sometimes I do think of what we could have been, of the things we could have achieved together. I'm convincing myself that everything happens for a reason though I still haven't found the reason just yet.
To you,
"There are many things that I'd like to say to you but I don't know how"
I've been trying to justify everything that you've done in the past few weeks but everytime I spare some thought into it, I only meet dead ends. It's funny, cause honestly, I expected more from you but you've proven yourself to me everything everyone else has warned me about. Strange, I must say, how one week we were on top of the world and the next we're barely conversing. You can't hold me for long, you know that as well as I do. We've decided to take our different paths and truthfully, I wish I cared a little more.
For once, I'd like a weekend with no drama.
Of wrong paths taken, broken friendships and running mascara.
jue*i've got a sickness and you're the cure.
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