I turn to my right, only to see the numbers 0140 glare back at me from the clock at the corner of my bedside table.
"It's almost two in the freaking morning," I think to myself and yet here I am, wide awake, thinking about you and no one else.
Since when did I let you take control over me? Since when did I let you determine how I feel about...everything?
I've concluded that I'm addicted to the chase. Because I never take what's been given or handed to me. Because I only fall once I'm denied what I want. Because I only want what I can't have.
You have a way in making me feel like I'm not worthy enough. As though I'm not good enough for your company or for your time. You were so eager at first and now you're pulling back. I just can't help but feel it's all because of something I did or didn't do.
You're playing games and so was I - the keyword being was because now I'm just too lazy. I've fallen for you but until you make up your mind and decide, I'm taking a step back. Yes, the silence is deafening but I can't afford to go through another heartbreak. Not now, not when I just picked up the pieces.
So call me when you're ready and hopefully, I'd still be waiting.
4 comments:
hey is this about someone i think it is about? checking if you're okay.
i don't think it's the same person.
ju rindu you.
when are we meeting up?
oh okay. then i suppose you owe me stories. i'm SICK. :'( mpph?
you better come for mpph. then we'll lepak awhile after that but i have to rush off to ipoh so we'll see.
but come, cause i'd like to see everyone there (:
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