i'll be good and you'll be a minute.

I've tried to come up with some metaphoric way of expressing everything that's going on in my head but all I've come up with are lines just worthy enough to be trash thrown at the side of an already filthy road.

I blame it on the lack of socializing for the past three weeks or so.

I feel like I've made a complete 180 since starting college. But without knowing the actual problem, I don't know what to fix. And this is me assuming there's a problem to begin with.

It's funny from being a pretty well connected girl in high school, often known for her extremely loud voice and being such a chatterbox, I'm now the quiet girl that barely makes effort to strike a conversation. The one that isn't as well connected as the others. The one that has one too many "alone" times. The one that should start making more friends. I no longer throw myself into college activities like I once did in high school. I don't stand out, and that bugs me a little.

Oh, how things have changed. And there's just one line that constantly plays in my head, "Now she's like the Manjuli in high school."

Wow, what a way to be demoted.

But then again, didn't they say (whoever they may be) that the higher you stand, the further you fall?

A roller coaster ride that lasted five months. Five very long months. And as we enter the sixth, it's clear to me that the ride has gone way off track. Gone beyond the familiarities of what used to be, the sights and sounds that were almost predictable. It's a whole different course now, a whole different place. And it's taken me five months to come to turns that things won't return to where it was.

We've truly past the point of no return.