so kiss me and smile for me.

Time after time, I fall for your words lies. I pick up the broken pieces that you so unceremoniously leave behind, and time after time, I forgive. But just like everything else, there are lines. There are boundaries that once crossed, you can never go back. And you my friend, have decided to step over with no hesitation. You choose to leave everything behind, everything we had and everything we could have had. I don't hold anything against you for neither of us are to blame. Shame on me for thinking different could work. You unknowingly made me break so many rules I made for myself, you made me put down so many walls that I've built around me. But we each have our own set of priorities, we each have our own set of beliefs and you have finally admitted to yours. We I have chosen to go my separate way because we both know only more dead roads await us. Yes, I am upset it didn't last as long as we both envisioned it to have. Yes, there could have been other ways to handle this. But I'm tired of hanging around in limbo. I'm tired of waiting on your every move just so I can plan my life around it. I'm tired of trying to understand when you and I both know that I don't agree on your view of things or your decisions. I'm tired of being in total bliss one moment only to have my emotions toyed with the next. I'm tired of always contemplating if our little thing could work out in the future despite all our differences. I'm tired of convincing myself that it will. I'm just plain tired. I don't know if you were just hoping for me to change, for me to come around where I finally see you side of things but I've come to a point where the balancing act has got to stop. I can't pretend we're okay and that everything will turn out alright in due time. I can't be that person you seem to want me to be. So maybe in some other time, maybe at some other place. But for now, this is the way it is. And I'm pretty sure, this is the way it always will be. I'm calling it quits on whatever it is that we had. Thanks for the memories. Boxers and kitchen tops. I loved every moment of it. And I honestly wish we never had to do this. I thought you were the one. And I'm keeping my fingers crossed that you felt the same.

jue*so kiss me goodbye.