you're the words that weren't enough.

Honestly, I think I've lost all spirit to blog. I used to be so hyped up about blogging, constantly reminding myself to put that thought or this picture into my next post. I guess being out of blogging for so long (considering I used to blog almost daily), I've lost the momentum. Heh, physics. :D.

I thought that if I changed my blog, I would be able to leave my memories behind. Just keep it somewhere far but near enough for me to look back if I ever needed to. (oh, god forbid!). Recently, a friend commented on my sudden change of views. How I used to be so amazingly close to a certain someone, but suddenly, my posts started mentioning hatred and such. Don't mistaken it for a five second change of mind, I guess it was all the build up.

As this is a new blog, I shall not bring up past experiances. Its just hard to start anew when so much revolves around the things you wish you could leave behind. Lets just see how long this can work out. Its as though I'm building a new relationship with me, myself and I. A few years down the road, I hope I can look back and not regret the decisions I'm about to make.

Moving on, I was quite reluctant to start this topic here but I guess I will, just to occupy my time. This could be just me, but I'm starting to realize a lot of people are pretty involved in the little thing we call L.O.V.E. A lot of my friends are currently "involved" with their respective "soul mates". Believe me, the vision of soul mate is far from my mind. I know its almost impossible to describe a relationship. To know that someone out there who isn't obliged to loved you, does. The fact that other than your family, you have someone else to turn to that gets you and understands your needs, your wants, your desires. The fact that even the most simple thought of him/her could brighten up your entire day.

I can just hear the objections being yelled back at me. Many would beg to differ. If you haven't been in one, i guess you just won't know. Our elders have preeched time and time again on how stupid we are to get involved so early. That we're pretty silly to get caught up in what we youngsters would refer to as "love". True, a breakup or heartbreak can pretty much destroy your entire life next couple of months. But we learn to move on. We build a better us, learning from our own mistakes. What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, right?

As long as we can see the thin line that seperates obsession and liking, we're pretty much safe. I just find it silly when a person puts their relationship of a couple of months on top of their friendship of years. That special someone could be on top of your priority list, but heck, no one is asking you to totally ignore your other friends. They are the ones that will be with you when things go wrong, you know?

I could go on for a million years about love and every subtopic it has to offer, but this tummy ache I've been having since last night, and this constant feeling of wanting to throw up my guts forces me to just end my post here. It's getting a little draggy anyway.

jue*you kick up the leaves and the magic is lost.