i've got a plan.

"Guess where I am? At your bus stop area! Be there in a bit."

"Haha, okay. I'll walk there now :)"

Three minutes later...

"I don't see you also. You lied to me isit? >:("

"I'm on the bus on the way to main block yo!"

Some things never change.

I love my Viddy <3

ain't got nobody.

Just because I held your hand,
Just because I kissed your lips,
Just because I was in your arms,
Just because we spent one night,
Just because we crossed the lines,

...doesn't mean it had to mean something.

Because it doesn't mean a thing.

you can spend the night.

So this is the part of a fling where we grow apart. The distance becomes more and more evident. I may have possibly forgotten how you look like.

It's funny how we set out knowing for certain that at some point the whatchumacallit-ship would turn sour, that after the crazy climax there just has to be a down turn. But knowing barely comes close to believing and in no way does it make this situation easier to handle.

I must admit though, in a span of a few weeks, I've swung from one extreme to another. From feeling all giddily happy, I now feel strangely numb - a feeling all too familiar but never quite welcomed either.

So maybe this is for the best. Maybe we shouldn't have crossed that line. Maybe there's still a chance to turn back time to the amazing friendship we first had.

Or maybe this is where it all comes to an end.

see you, breathe you.

• The last week of classes.
• Mr. We-Shouldn't-Have-Crossed-That-Line.
  
• Exams.
• A-Levels Ball.
• The best friend leaving.
• Scholarships.
• Edinburgh.

Edit @ 22nd April 2009, 8.06 pm :

• Left foot that won't seem to heal.
  

So maybe there's quite a bit on my mind.

make no apologies.

This whole back and forth mind game thing is tiring.

Yes or no, boy.

sectumsempra.

The last one's my favourite.

Aren't you excited?

never miss a beat.

What did you learn today? I learned nothing.
What did you do today? I did nothing.
What did you learn at school? I didn't go.
Why didn't you go to school? I don't know.

Kaiser Chiefs are awesome <3.

to make me better.

Hello, here I am, skipping my Accounting mocks - seven weeks before my paper.

This whole hormonal thing needs to get checked. I've heard Ray LaMontagne's Hold You In My Arms just about, fifteen times this morning alone. I'm tired of being on this roller coaster of emotions, being blown around by the wind, being so fickle yet so sure all at the same time. Or maybe all I need is just a good day in bed, tucked under my orange comforter. Clothes would be optional.

Okay, I'm running late for my next class (I'm trying to make myself believe I'm going to attempt going to class).

Oh, and best friend is leaving in exactly seventeen weeks and three days.

Hugs&hickies.

funny little feeling.

Indulge in you a little deeper.

♥

worn out faces.

This is me, moving on to bigger and better things.

I've finally realized how toxic our friendship was. I must admit, it took me awhile to come to this point. It's funny to think back to the times when I once thought I couldn't last without you. You were such a big part of my every day that not talking to you would disrupt the balance of things.

But now I see how the things that matter to you are so unimportant to me. Trivial, almost.

Don't get me wrong, I had truckloads of fun and leave now with very few regrets.

But this is me, having outgrown you.

Have a nice life (:

talk with your hips.

It'd be so easy to lose myself to you.

♥

the irony.

I wish I had the energy to clear my mind.

Isn't it strange that the two people I really feel like talking to now are;

Liew Berlin - all the way in Aussieland (I don't know if you remember the day that picture was taken but now that I think about it, it'd definitely be one for the books. Oh, how our scriptwriters love us!)


...and Amira Baharin - who's in one of the two places I want to be at right now.

Hehe, you know I love you both <3

show some skin.

Do you or don't you want me to love you?

♥

when you go down down.

This week has been...(unexpectedly) good.

Because apparently college kids play the Game of Life while skipping class during breaks (:

Because Jean kept on having kid after kid after kid, so much so that her car didn't have any space and we had to stack her baby girl on top. It was rather amusing to see her stress herself over college fees. (Oh, &&for the record : Zai can't do math)

Because boys will be boys. This was probably the only time I've heard (a measly number of) four boys complain about cramming at the back of a civic. Like you haven't done worse.

Because I followed the boys for futsal, ran into a certain someone, and managed to somewhat catch up with the rather loud BB-ians.

Because it was reallyreally funny taking (many) pictures for the A Levels Yearbook.

And most of all, because today was simply - a fantastic Friday.

I think I've just stocked up on my buckets of sunshine and rainbow dust.